random Notes - January 2011

Thanks for the memories. The ones that make me realize that my eyes were far away from the prize, looking for greener pastures that lie awake on the horizon. It always felt like my timing was off, just for a split second. But in a minute’s mistake, that proved to be the toughest disaster. Falling flat on my face, such a catastrophie. Perscription pill poppin, wishing I still believed…
In love with first sight, yeah right, mabee lustful delight. Tossing and turning cause I can’t even sleep at night. Relationships have been futile, and my attitude grows more senile, by each passing moment. Instead of holding on to them, I cheerfully let them all go. Right down the drain. Turn around, fall down and I’m back at it again, here comes the pain. Back in the rain on a lonesome dark night. Fighting for words to make everything seem alright.
God, I know that I’ll never be prosperious if I’m always searching for fools gold
This launching pad is my shelter and it never gets old
No matter how much I complain about misery. I’m still so damn thankful for you bringing me
Out of depression, in the tourcherous hell. Missery loves company, that much I can tell.
Although I’m much older than when I would first right to you.
One thing remains and that will always stay true.
No matter what, I know my faith is larger than a mustard seed.
And you told me that with my faith ever so strong, I’ll be stronger than my enemies
I’ll never give into complatency. I know I have passion, please give me the fire.
And all these lustful desires – please take them away.
Please give me the positive energy that ever so often, I’m able to proudly display.
It’s not about money, good fortune, or possessions.
It’s about finding the positive attitude that lifts me up, from the pits of depression.